The start..

They say that everything happens for a reason, that it all leads you to better things in your life. When though? When does those better things in life come around? I've watched people that are close to me struggle, I've watched them hurt and go through things I wouldn't wish on anyone. So for those people when does it get better? When do they get to live a normal life? Why are they the ones that have to be in pain and have one thing happen after another? One thing that's good in my life are the amazing people that it consist of. Every single person that is in my life and is close to me, is supported. With out the support of those people I wouldn't be the person that I am today.

I am a seventeen  year old girl who as everyone would see on the outside is living the life that she wants. About a year ago if you had asked me that question I would have answered with no, I am not living how I want to. I could change things in my life. But if you asked me now, I would say I have never been happier! I may have things not go my way and I may see the people around me hurt. But me, I AM HAPPY! I am happy with the person I am and the person I know that I want to be. I've realized that there is no reason in my life that I don't have to be happy.  I have my moments of not being happy and the moments that I feel like my world will end. I have the moments where all I want to do is cry and I don't want to talk to anyone. I have those moments and I think everyone does. But I have to look past those moments, and look towards the future and what I have to be happy for. And that is what this year is about..

Lesson 1: Let go.

"Holding on to anger is like holding on to a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned" -Buddha

" You build on failure. You use it as a stepping stone. Close the door on the past. You don't try to forget the mistakes, but you don't dwell on it. You don't let it have any of your energy, or any of your time, or any of your space. " Johnny Cash

Mom, I know you will get through this because you are an amazing woman and you'll fight all this stuff off! You're not one to let anything affect you.

Debbi, Good luck with everything. You're a strong an amazing woman and you'll get through this. You have so much support. 

I love both of you lady's! (:

and Tyler, Thank you for being there for me. I love you and you make me happy. Without you being by my side it would be hard. So thank you.