Change is the future

Have you every wanted to have some kind of impact on someone’s like? Something that, that person will never forget and they will always remember that you were the one to help them? I think everyone needs help at some point in there life no matter what it is for. More than anything I want to be able to help people because I think that is what this world needs. Whether they are kids or adults they are people and they need help in someway. The world has changed compared to what it use to be many years ago. This world isn’t safe anymore. You have children getting taken from there own home and getting killed, kids that are killed by the ones that are suppose to take care of them, the ones that they trust, and then you have the people that don’t care about anything they do and don’t care who they hurt on the way. These children that are out there getting harmed, abuse, and hurt are the future of this world. If they grow up knowing that the world is like that and criticizes everything the future is only going to get worst and become less safe and to me that isn’t fair because this world can be such a great and wonderful place.

Something I hear commonly is that people don’t know how to handle change, but that is something I don’t believe. If people don’t know how to handle change then tell me why isn’t it affecting them that technology is changing and taking over peoples lives? Or the fact that it is changing how kids are treated by there parents or how they treat there parents? Or even that there are world disasters that are happening and no one is doing anything about it? That is all change. There is change that is happening all around us, but people can’t handle change? That is a lie and I think the world is changing every single day all around us and people know how to handle it. But what I don’t think they know what to handle is the fact of making change that is good. People everywhere say that they want to change the world or they want to be apart of changing it. But why isn’t anyone stepping up and starting that change? I think it is because its not part of the status quo, the world wants to make change but its not what everyone is doing. And that is what is wrong with the world and people these days they have to follow and they can’t take the lead.

I am only 17 and I know that I am not able to change the entire world, or even a majority of it. But I want to be that one person that steps up and try. Trying may not fix everything but its one more person that is putting there foot out there to help and see what they can become and what they can do to make the world better than it is today. For me I want to help children because I feel they are the future and they are the ones that can carry this on. Social work will give me the ability to help children in everything that they need and make them see they are amazing people and that they deserve the life that they were given. I don’t expect to change every child’s life but if there are the couple that I can impact that will make me happy and make me feel accomplish. Children are everything and the way they are growing up right now isn’t right, these children are our future and that is something they need to be shown. I can’t wait to help change the world in my own way and beside the fact of becoming a social worker America isn’t the only country that needs to be save, but there are other children of our future that are suffering everyday, and that is those kids in Africa and other countries like that. Every child deserves there life and to live it like a child that they should. I do plan on visiting those other countries and also I plan on adopting a child that needs a family so that they are given the chance every child deserves.

Always remember when you see a child they are the future, Teach them the right things because that is what they deserve. Also, Change the world by taking one step you fell is right.<3

I did it!

I've been in school for 13 years and the night I walked across that stage to get my diploma I hadn't felt anything different and I didn't really feel like I even accomplished anything. But its been a few days now and I may not feel so to speak "different" but I do feel accomplished now. I hadn't when I first walked across the stage but I feel that these 13 years of school has done so much to me. I am ready to take on the world in my own hands and I am ready to spread my wings and fly. I want to prove everyone that I can accomplish so much and I am so ready to start. I know its summer and I get a break and I will take advantage of that break but once its over I am going to pursue every dream that I have and I will make the best of my life. If I fall the best I can do is get back up and try again. I wont give up on anything because I know that if I put my mind and my heart I am able to do anything I want. The future is a big thing in anyone's life, I know that this is the time to take it a little more serious than I ever had but at the same time to have fun and live my life.

I want to make this summer the best summer of my life and I can't wait to do that. Once the summer is gone and over with I want to make the next year of my life just as good. I want no regrets for my future and I want to leave my past in the past. I am only going to have people in my life that are good influence's and I will live my life how I want. This is the start of a new beginning that I am ready to put full force down and have it be the best. It's time to start the nest chapter in my life and I can't wait to see whats in store for me.

This up coming week I am going to MCC to get my classes for my major. Social work was something I choose because I want to so to speak "save the world." I want to work with kids and save them, kids deserve a chance and thats why I want to work in Child Welfare. Its going to be a lot of work but All I need to do is beleive and I have amazing people next to me pushing me and showing me that I CAN do ANYTHING.

I am ready for my life to really begin even in all the difficulties that is faces. Hello world, I am Marissa, BRING IT ON!!!!!!!!

The Inspiring ones..

As I look forward and see that graduation is just one week away from today, I think that I didn't just get here because I worked hard. And I didn't just get here because school is required. I got here because of people in my life. That support me and love me unconditionally. There are so many people that i need to thank and I think that's what I will do is take my time and thank them even if they never read it.

First...
My Best friend. My Hero. My Mom.
Without you I wouldn't be here. Literally.. But you make me the person that I am today or should I say young lady. You have always been there to listen to me wine and you have always just sat back and let me make my mistakes. You have pushed me to do my best and if I don't you're never mad at me you just understand like a good mom should do. We have smiled together, Laughed together, and also Cried good and bad together. We have even fought but you never stayed upset with me. But I thank you for being there while I was going to school, Yes you are my mom and your suppose to. But you weren't just a normal mom you were always there and so supportive. As I approach High School Graduation I find my self wanting to Thank you the most. I know that I never do in person  but you need to know that I thank you more than anything.. You are the best mom anyone could ask for and I know its hard when you hear about me graduating but just think that's MY daughter. I love you mom and Thank you So much.

My Second Hero. My Dad.
Also with out you I wouldn't be here and standing only a week away from my graduation. I love you. I know that I don't tell you enough and its not because I don't because I love you more than any other man in the world you are MY dad. I can honestly say that no matter the hurt, the tears anything it will never make me love you less. I will always be daddy's girl just like I always was. I think back to the times when we would go four wheeling, or ride the lawn mower together, or  work in the garden or even go to the dump. I remember those times more than anything and I miss them but I am getting older and I'm not that little girl. I wish sometimes I was but at the same time I know that I am going to grow up into being a stronger young lady. You were there at a hard time in my life and you helped me so much. I will never forget it because that meant so much that even tho you we were in pain you put it aside to help me. I love you for that and I thank you for everything that you have done and will do.



Bethany.
You use to drive me crazy with always lecturing me. With the "get good grades" "go study." As much as I hated all that I have to look were I am now. When it comes to some things I am not that smart but that hard work paid off look I am graduating and starting college in the Fall. And a lot of it is cause you were pushing me to do my best. When I was younger me and you were a lot closer and I know that I never told you but I wish that we could have been closer over the past few years. I felt kinda distant from you and I never said it but all I wanted was my sister. I think the reason I had a problem with Chris(which now I love) was because I was losing my best friend, the person that I looked up to. I love you Bethany And I love your Kids. whenever I have a bad day I Think of them. those two kids give me strength that gets me through my day.. Thank You.

Kristen.
Your children are beautiful and I love them so much. They make me smile when I talk to them on the phone and I enjoy the calls. Then there is you, my lovely sister that has been through tons and you are just like mom, STRONG. even if you don't know that and I admire you. You have talked to me before about things that I have gone through and it has helped me a lot. I went to you because you have been through it and I knew you would know and you did. Thank you for taking time to talk to me and show me that things can be okay. I am greatful to have both you and Bethany as my sisters because you are both amazing to me and I do look up to you both more than anything. You both are my best friends. Thank you.

Meagan Nottage.
My sister. that's what you are to me and you mean so much.. You were more than a best friend to me actually. I hated spending the night at others house but then at your house is the one I always wanted to go to. I always enjoyed spending the night at your house. thank you for being the only friend that stuck by my side even when I moved. I love you and miss you more than anything and I can't wait to see you. You are my sister for life and I will never forget the message that was shown during our friendship. Thank you Meagan.

Vicki Burke.
My Second mom at school. Since 4th grade you were always there for me to help me with everything. And over the years you got to watch me and all my friends grow. I remember my last day in Farmington or at the school you took me inside and you had given me a present which was a teddy bear and an address book and I had never expected a teacher to get me anything but you did. You were always amazing to me and now I am a Senior and I still keep in touch with you and is still close with you. I am so thankful of you for having you while I was growing up and to have someone like you to point me on the right path. I am not sure what I would have done without you. I love you and the person you are, the one that helped me, talked to me, cared for me..just like my own mother. When I moved you were the person that I think I missed the most at school. Not even the people I knew from kindergarten try and make the effort to talk to me when I try.. But you do Thank you for always being there even to this day. You are amazing and will always have a special place in my heart.  

Ciara Renee.
My support when I need someone throughout the worst years of my life. We became so close during 8th grade and I had never had a better friend in my life like you. We had so many inside joke, bad times, and great ones. I thank you because everyone needs a best friend and even know in our lives we have been through a lot and we kind of grew apart we will always be best friends and I know that because I love you and the person you are. You were the best friend that got me through so much and I know no matter what you will always be there for me when I need you the most and I hope you know the same thing. I love you Best Friend and never forget that. Thank you for everything you have done.

Cathy Grondin.
Wow I miss you. You were the one that after school took care of me and I would run over to your house becasue it was better than mine. I miss those times and the times that I would even bring my sewing machine. Those were the best of times while I was growing up. You are the one that inspired me to take a fashion class that has helped me so much these past few years and with out you in my life i would have never taken it and would have never met people that will forever mean something to me. Thank you for that and also putting up with me all these years. You have prepared me for my graduation more than you will ever know. THANK YOU.

Tyler LaRocque.
My Love, My Life, My boyfriend. You inspire me everyday with the things that you do. You are so talented, smart, loving. You make me want to be a better person and because of that Its who I am today. It's not just that but its what I want to be in the Future. Picking my Major has a lot to do with you, not because you made me or because if I don't you'll be disappointed. But it is because you make me want to be a good person like you are and being a Social worker will help me with that. When I first started dating you I never thought that we would make it this far because we are in high school. But we did and I am so happy because it has made me learn a lot in my life or about my life. I thank you for being the person you are and standing beside me when I was hard to handle. It shows what true love is and it's a lot because of you. I love you Tyler, Thank you.

Kristen Johnson.
The person that was and always will be more than a teacher to me, More like a Hero. THANK YOU! THANK YOU! THANK YOU! I could never thank you enough for everything that you have ever done for me. You have always been there when I was upset and you taught me such a great life lesson that I will carry with me throughout my life. You are an amazing person both inside and out and I am so glad that I had the chance of knowing you. I will never forget you and I plan on coming back to see you often. I want to keep in touch with you because I know that when times are hard you will only be a phone call away. Thank you for being such a wonderful and inspiring teacher and being my hero.

Penny Littleman.
I have known you for about 5 years maybe and you have been there from me from day one. You would pick me up from school when I needed to be picked up, you listened to me when I needed to vent, and you always gave me the best advice. People like you that I have in my life are the ones that keep me going. You are superwoman to me and you are an awesome mother and and awesome person. I know your kids appreciate everything you do for them because I am not yours but I appreciate everything that you have done fore me. Thank you for being  there to help me and see me through things that I needed help with you have been a big inspiration in  my life.

Debbi LaRocque.
Thank you for so much, the first thing is having such an amazing son. But the second is loving me as a person  and being a great person. I've enjoyed getting to know you and hanging out with you and everything, you are a beautiful person both inside and out and I am glad I have the chance of having someone like you and your son in my life. The fact that you are one of the strongest people that in my life also helps me and that is why I thank you because seeing others strong and go through things they don't deserve makes me smile. I love being apart of your life and having you being apart of mine. I can't wait for more good times with you in the future.

To the rest of my family. Family is the best thing that anyone could have in there lives and I am thankful that I have the BEST family ever. You guys are awesome and I know that I can always count on you when I need someone to talk to. So thank you ALL and you guys know who you are.

The people that have hurt me in my life in more ways than one are people I need to thank. Not for the pain they caused but for the fact that they have showed me a lot in life. So Thank you. If I forget someone I am sorry, but I don't just thank these people. I Thank everyone in my life because you have all guided me and or helped me in someway. So thank you for helping me to get where I am right Now I love every single one of you.

It's been a while...

It's been forever since I have even been able to write in here and I missed it.. I liked writing cause it helps me vent.. I read the most amazing blog the other day and it deffinatly helped me see life in a whole knew perspective. It was by Ben Pobjie, and it was just the most amazing thing that I have read.

But thats not what I came to write about.. what I am here to write about is the fact that I am sitting back as I watch my past become my past and my future to form into something bigger and brighter.. And I am amazed to see it all. I graduate in 12 days and its unbelieveable... I cant even beleive that I am graduating and I am starting my future and I will being my own life. I am so happy, sad, anxious... Just everything its something that is mixed emotions. When I started high School I hated it, I didnt like meeting new people and I was afraid.. as the years went on the time got better.. and now I am senior and I am going to graduating and leaving everything that I had done in high school..  I met new friends, I had lost good friends, I had seen hurt, I found love, and I have been through more than anyone. But I think about it, I'VE MADE IT. I am here I am aproching graduation faster than I have ever expected..

I've been able to fine love and not many high school people or even just anyone doesnt even get to find that and I was lucky enough to find that.. I was lucky to call someone mine.. the past 16 months I have watched this particular person grow, i have seen him form into the person he is right now and I am so Proud of him.. I am not sure if he even knows that.. or if he understand and just thinks I am saying it because I am "suppose to" and the thing is.. I am not saying it because itss the nice thing.. I am saying it because I mean it.. I mean the fact that I am so proud of him for what he does and I want hin to know that. I want him to understand that I am telling the truth and that he means everything to me and that the things he does amazes me.. I tell him but sometimes I think he doesnt truly know.. I have never been so Proud of someone in my entire life, Watching him grow and seeing the talent he has makes me so happy that I can say that I am his girlfried. I am so honored and Love being that girl.

I am so ready for graduation as I am sad.. I am going to miss EVIT and all my friend and most importantly the Teacher that has taught me soo much. high school has shown me so much  in my life an it will take me far. I am thankful for everything high school has done for me.. I will not regret and I am able to accept everythign that has happened to me.. I love my life and the people that are in it...

The Christmas Sweater..

I'm reading this book called 'The Christmas Sweater" By Glenn Beck. And I encourage everyone to read it.. I have never read A book that teaches such a good lesson and shows that you have things in your life because you deserve them. It definatly teaches you how to not take this and others for granted. I have so far enjoyed that book and I am not one that likes alot of the books that I read.

"Sometimes the hardest part of the journey is believing you're worthy of the trip."
— Glenn Beck (The Christmas Sweater)

Most times we're so focused on what we think we want that we can't appreciate how happy we already are. It's only when we forget about our problems and help others forget theirs that we realize how good we really have it."
— Glenn Beck (The Christmas Sweater)


These are two quotes that are from the book, and are actually two things I will Look at differently.. one thing I hate about the world is that people take advantage of the simpliest thing. the Smallest things, the most important things that are in there life, and I dont think its fair. I've taken advantage of things and I know everyone else has once in there life if not more. Its one thing that you can stop doing but people just continue doing it. Not everyone does it intentionally its just something that happens. I've learned that in my life taking advantage of others and more the ones closest to me doesnt get me ANYWHERE. Becasue those are the people that help me with who I am today. They've helped me see what life truly has to offer and what I can do to accomplish my goals. Over come my fears. And pursue my dreams. And to my I think in my life is important. Taking advantage of others doesnt really get you anywhere and I know that for me its just gonna casue me to lose the ones I love! And that is something I want to risk. So why do people take advantage of others? I am not so sure... I wish it was something I knew but then again I cant answer for everyone but rather only me. And I answer for me I am not sure why I do it, but I know there is a way that I can stop it. there is a way that I can not cause me or the ones around me pain by NOT taking advantage of them.

My life is official were I want it.. This is a NEw beginging for me and I shall make the best of it. I know that I deserve that much!

The book of life..

Sometimes I wish life came with a manual. To show you and teach you something when times get hard, when your stressed it would show you how to deal. If you fight with someone it would teach you to see where the other person is coming from and show that solving problems helps. It makes things better. Also to show how someone else is hurting and how there pain may bd worst than yours. Having that guide to show you what to do and what to say when the family member that is so close to is hurting cause nothing is going right for them. Just that guide that would explain how life works. I wonder why we don't have that guide.. But then I think of the reason they say lifes an adventure, on an adventure you learn and see new things. Life as an adventure or journey is hard but we all make it through even if it's hard. We hurt people, say things we don't mean, and do many unintentional things that we just would lOve to take back, but can't.

In the game of life ivE actually learned alot these past few weeks and I am trying to be the person everyone needs me to be but more importantly who I need to be for me. It a hard thing to change but the way you change is a good thing if you know it's for the better. I've felt relived, different, honest, happy, free. More like the girl I should have been a year Ago. And ive changed and I feel it's good, but I also hope others can see and they think it's for the good too.

The feeling I get everyday when I wake up is one ive never gotten before.. One I don't know how to explain and one that I would never want to replace. I hope it stay and doesn't go for it seems to complete the marisaa I know..

The words..

Everyone has words and things they hate to hear! But then there are the ones they like. Words that inspire me and make me feel like I could be a better person is 'I'm proud of you' those for words me everything to me. When I hear them there is a rush that I feel that I wouldnt change for anything.. It's those words that make me wanna pursue my dreams and the passion that I have for something. Because I know that there is someone out there that is "proud of me" it's just an outstanding feeling..

There was something that I had heard today that was said like this "love is a decision." Listening to those words come out of someones mouth got me thinking.It's crazy how people can hear just a few words and it can change anything. Like in a realationshop the words "we need to talk" are four words anyone dreads to hear. But then there are those two words "I do" that are magical... That something so small could mean something so amazing. Simple words can change your life forever. Hearing "love is a decision" changed my life. Not knowing what love was and still after a year of loving someone trying to figure it out I today realized loving someone is a choice, it isn't doing it because everyone else is, or because it just seems right. But LOVE IS a DECISION. It is trying to figure out if you are willing. To me after yesterday thinking I knew what love is and had it all figured out I today realized I know what it is and I am truly inspired to get the opportunity to LOVE!!

The start..

They say that everything happens for a reason, that it all leads you to better things in your life. When though? When does those better things in life come around? I've watched people that are close to me struggle, I've watched them hurt and go through things I wouldn't wish on anyone. So for those people when does it get better? When do they get to live a normal life? Why are they the ones that have to be in pain and have one thing happen after another? One thing that's good in my life are the amazing people that it consist of. Every single person that is in my life and is close to me, is supported. With out the support of those people I wouldn't be the person that I am today.

I am a seventeen  year old girl who as everyone would see on the outside is living the life that she wants. About a year ago if you had asked me that question I would have answered with no, I am not living how I want to. I could change things in my life. But if you asked me now, I would say I have never been happier! I may have things not go my way and I may see the people around me hurt. But me, I AM HAPPY! I am happy with the person I am and the person I know that I want to be. I've realized that there is no reason in my life that I don't have to be happy.  I have my moments of not being happy and the moments that I feel like my world will end. I have the moments where all I want to do is cry and I don't want to talk to anyone. I have those moments and I think everyone does. But I have to look past those moments, and look towards the future and what I have to be happy for. And that is what this year is about..

Lesson 1: Let go.

"Holding on to anger is like holding on to a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned" -Buddha

" You build on failure. You use it as a stepping stone. Close the door on the past. You don't try to forget the mistakes, but you don't dwell on it. You don't let it have any of your energy, or any of your time, or any of your space. " Johnny Cash

Mom, I know you will get through this because you are an amazing woman and you'll fight all this stuff off! You're not one to let anything affect you.

Debbi, Good luck with everything. You're a strong an amazing woman and you'll get through this. You have so much support. 

I love both of you lady's! (:

and Tyler, Thank you for being there for me. I love you and you make me happy. Without you being by my side it would be hard. So thank you.